#Where I've been

[polarbearauri]

whoops!

Haha wow! Me when I post that my hiatus is over and then I go silent for like, multiple weeks? Uh, yeah, sorry about that one. I've been pretty busy recently and the whole... the fuckening surrounding the political situation in the United States has not been exactly what I would call great. My mental state hasn't been either -- it hasn't been terrible, but it's been a bit hard to get myself to sit down and write, lately.

So I just want to make this post to let anyone following my work know that, no, I'm not, and am never, abandoning Terastallized and the story of Helia. That girl pulled me out of a three-year-long writer's block, and she's extremely near and dear to my heart. I am still working on chapter seven, and while I cannot promise that I'll have something to show you soon, I really, really hope I do.

Thanks for sticking with me this long. I have a great deal of fanfic to catch up on as well, and I will, but for the moment I do want to prioritize getting a little bit of writing done every day. Going to ask my partners to remind me. Hopefully more Terastallized content will follow -- this next chapter should be pretty exciting.

Anyhow, I'll be going for the moment, but not for multiple weeks this time! I do try to keep the Tumblr active but sometimes I just sorta don't know what to say. We may be in luck, though, more writing means more google autocorrect nonsense, so you may see some of that haha

Until next time! :3

[literaryxbones]

Where I've Been

So, I am officially back from my hiatus. I'm planning to return to Tumblr at least part-time in the middle of college courses and work. (I got a new job!) I also am planning on launching my first business! I'll reveal the concept for it soon, I think it's pretty cool. I've got a lot of things going on, so my activity may vary.

Addressing The Elephant In The Room

My mental health has improved considerably. I've made new friends in college, and I have somebody in my life I can talk to about my dissociation and heightened emotions. Our experiences are both different, but it's nice to know somebody I can relate to. Offline and online, I haven't had to worry about the voices as much. They've been unusually quiet, which is a great relief to me. I've also noticed that I'm not getting triggered as much.

This probably has something to do with my change in environment. I'm no longer in highschool, which was a traumatizing place for me. I now have a job that I like that feels meaningful. Classes are more aligned with my interests and my life has a general, vague sense of direction now.

And finally, I have a friend who gets me. They mean the world to me, and I love them dearly. Before meeting them, I had never felt a sense of safety, security, and comfort with another person before.

I've had lots of friends, both in-person and within digital spaces, but I didn't feel truly connected or comfortable with them.

In terms of therapy, I still need to contact Mental Health Services, complete my intake, and see a therapist qualified to treat adults. The trouble is, I'd have to answer the same questionaries over and over again, revealing personal information about myself and my past. My progress in being evaluated for my memory loss and dissociation would completely restart. I would still have to see somebody that doesn't know me, my history, or anything about me. It's a long process, but one I'm still willing to go through. I'll probably need something in the room for emotional support while I'm taking my call. And once I do that, my health company would actually have to have a trauma specialist available that's familiar with dissociation.

This is just the surface of my journey with therapy, but I'm counting on it! I haven't given up just yet, and my trauma will be addressed. I promise you that.

What's Happening to Goth History?

I'm still continuing Goth History, but I can no longer keep up with publishing series installments every three days. Between business, work, and school, spare time is limited. Instead, I'm switching over to a weekly or bi-weekly schedule. Saturday will be the designated posting day for episodes.

New Series

A while ago, I released a poll asking what content you ghouls would like to see. Some of you expressed interest in music recommendations, reviews, and analysis. Music is an important part of the goth subculture.

Social media algorithms tend not to prioritize music content when it comes to the subculture, but I hope to change that. Bands deserve to be discussed alongside fashion, aesthetics, and horror flicks. I'm considering a monthly schedule for this new series. "Macabre Music of the Month" maybe?

Out of a month's listening, I'd choose a band, album, song, or artist that stands out to me in the subculture.

These are my plans so far, and it'd be awesome to kick this series off in January!

Thank you so much for reading. Divider graphics are F2U.

-SORDID

[ex-king-sombra]

This is gonna be a long post, so a tl;dr will be on the bottom, in bold.

My interest in this didn't even wane, I've been daydreaming about it semi-frequently.

Issue is: My mom's chronically ill, and up until tomorrow, I have been her only reliable caretaker around! For a while, her issues were worsening, leaving me much too drained to do artwork. By the end of last week, I had her promise to go to the hospital, because she'd been having nonstop seizures.

She has non-epileptic seizures, and one of the main triggers is stress, and it turns out her body had been freaking the fuck out, because she has a pulmonary embolism (don't worry, it's a small clot that'll clear with blood-thinners,) and pneumonia (her oxygen levels are fine.)

Anyway, it's been very much obviously, and she's finally going to my cousin's house to finish up paperwork and other things she's gotta do in a less stressful place.

There's also gonna be a lot of "figuring things out", because needless to say, I'm not exactly equipped to handle this sort of thing. These past few months have been more taxing than usual.

UHHH my point is, though, things are finally looking up! I have a lot of motivation for this blog, but I was too fatigued to draw almost anything at all. I barely managed to force myself to finish a singular comic page for a comic I literally pay for a domain name over.

SO! Hopefully, now that I have time to actually have an uninterrupted break without setbacks (assuming nothing suddenly changes tomorrow,) I will finally, FINALLY, FINALLY get back to updating this blog! I've really been wanting to.

tl;dr: I made a post saying I was regaining interest, and I've maintained that interest, but my mom's medical issues (as well as me being her only responsible caretaker,) left me too drained to draw for a while. Hopefully, now that we're trying to fix these issues, I can work up the energy to actually do things. Thanks for your patience, and not just writing the blog off as "dead"!

[the-nami07]

Where I've been! <3

Hey! So I've been on a little unpredicted hiatus due to school starting here and some other things that are causing my personal life to be busy. I am back and working on requests, I am so sorry for leaving y'all hanging w/o an explanation!

[cbrownjc]

So yeah, this is just a post to apologize for the quietness over the last month. But I was pretty much sick all last month and it stretched into the start of this month. It wasn't COVID or anything like that, thank goodness. But it was rather debilitating all the same, which I was afraid might have to do with a surgery I had two years ago for a herniated disk. I could barely sit down because every time I did my leg and foot would be in pain.

I've been to Urgent Care twice now in two weeks. Once virtually and then again this weekend in person. And it's not related to the herniated disk I had thank goodness. Just muscle sprains.

Anyway, I'm on medication and instructions on what to do if things get worse.

I've also been cleaning and fully decorating my apartment. I've lived here for over a year and still had storage tubs and such out, as well as my grandmother's china just piled into the kitchen pantry. Because I couldn't lift or put together the furniture I ordered for the things I needed to finally put away, I had to hire someone to do it for me. But now everything is almost done -- I'm just waiting for a shipment of hand-woven baskets that I plan to put my gaming strategy guides in, as well as a new mattress pad, and I'll be 97.99% done with decorating. The only thing left would be to order some curtains and curtain rods for the windows, but I can wait on that as I do have blinds already up that came with the apartment.

My sister is coming to visit for Thanksgiving in two weeks. So I know I won't be around much that week as well. But after that, I plan to try and be more regular around here, as there is still much writing I have planned for the series I'm writing with @faerywhimsy, as well as hopefully getting news about Season 2 of IWTV. 😁

[outlandish-dreamer]

Hi everyone!! I'm back after being kind of gone for a little bit. (I didn't plan this I guess I just forgot to post or sm.)

But regardless, I'm finally posting something new lmao. Anyway, I started getting back into writing fanfics and wanted to share my newest story on here! You probably already know this, but I've been in love with Good Omens ever since I was introduced to it almost 4 years ago. And after all they've been through, they just deserve some wholesome, sweet moments together.

Which is why I wrote my story Lay Me Gently In The Cold Dark Earth which obviously I had to name it with a Hozier lyric lol) So yeah! I'm gonna post it on here and if you want you can check it out and lmk what you think! It's also here on my Ao3 side account Ineffably_Insane (my main being "WereSimply_MeantToBe") if you wanna read it there :D

Anyway, thank you so much for sticking around and enjoying my content. I appreciate all of you more than you could know <3 Remember to stay hydrated, safe, and remember that you are loved and valued here.

Love, Willow 💙

[alwaysjustmina]

Haven't seen you around on my dash lately, hope you're doing okay!! <3

Thanks anon! I'm good. Just been going through a time lately. I'm hoping to be back soon and have even started writing again. I'm also on a short Ghost hiatus, been way to vested in kpop lately and have even dragged my Canada husband @midnight-moth to kpop stores every time we see each other. 🤣

I was able to spend this past weekend with Moth seeing Sleep Token and getting back in the swing of life. Ghost movie soon too!! We may have tickets for three showings.

Thanks so much for noticing my absence and hope you are well too!

Mina 💜

[brighteyedbushybrowed]

Hey Y'all

So, I've been away for a while. A fair while in fact. The short explanation is life things have happened, including having a job, getting a dog, and trying to apply to do a masters degree online. More below the cut if you wanna read the long explanation.

The longer explanation is the above plus the fact I can't bring myself to write fandom content anymore. Anytime I try to, I feel a sense of dread. My immediate thought is that it needs to be perfect or no-one will read it and members of the fandom will hate or dismiss it and nobody cares about what I write for fandoms anyway so my writing isn't exactly missed anyway so what's the point? I'm still writing original stuff for myself from time to time and am starting to post it on another, separate blog to this that focuses only on my original stuff. Nobody follows it other than myself on this blog and my sims 4 blog and that element of being unknown... it feels safe. It feels safe now to write and post things because I don't feel like I need to live up the expectations that fandom creators often feel forced to live up to. I don't have to worry about my next piece being guaranteed to be better and more interesting the last. I don't have to worry about "that character is so OOC your writing sucks" (smth that I used to get when I wrote for another fandom back in 2020) or similar sentiments being shared by whoever reads my work.

And furthermore, because my original writing doesn't include smut atm I'm not freaking myself out or making myself feel over sexualised. I know that doesn't make sense bc I don't write about myself but as a greysexual who feels sex repulsed a good chunk of the time, writing smut would sometimes make me feel unwell but I would do it anyway bc I felt like it's what people who read my work wanted, you know? I love and adore the Ghost fandom and Mary Goore, but sometimes it felt like people only wanted to read my work for smut because smut was always what performed best on my blog. And I just... even though the smut I wrote was good and people still read my non-smut stuff, it felt like I was just writing for popularity and not for me. It felt like I was becoming this. This shell of what I started out as. I don't know if I'd call it selling out, but I certainly wasn't truly writing what I and only I wanted anymore. I was writing what I thought others wanted to see from me because I almost had this image or idea to live up to.

There have been times where even now after such a long break when I've tried to write fandom content I've wanted to cry. My brain would blank and it was almost like I didn't write anymore so I felt like a robot on autopilot whenever I did manage to write something. And reading it back, it came across as soulless to me. I went from being someone who is passionate about my craft and the fandoms I'm in to this being who wrote for the sake of writing and for the entertainment of others alone.

I may come back and write fandom content again from time to time, but I honestly don't know. For now, I'm going to stick to my original writing and ideas and try to discover myself as a writer again. If you've read this far, I thank you. I truly do appreciate you taking the time to read and listen to what I have to say. I originally felt tempted to apologise for all of this, but I've come to realise that if I do then I will be telling myself my feelings on this are wrong or not valid. I refuse to do that to myself and go back to writing for popularity. So instead, thank you for continuing to read my fics and headcanons. Even now after months I still get notifications of likes and reblogs on my work, and I am truly grateful that you guys still read what I wrote.

If any of you do want to see what my original writing looks like as I rediscover myself as a writer, I have a very new blog @yearningforvampires where I'm just starting to write and post things (literally made the blog last night, that's how new it is). Be aware, I ONLY want you to follow that blog if you want to see my original work. If you go to that blog expecting me to start posting fandom content there, then it's not going to be the blog for you.

I love you guys, and once again thank you for reading this far and all your support. I've made some wonderful friends here and I hope that you understand where I'm coming from and what I'm doing now. Here's to new beginnings!

All my love,

Kaisarion <3

[geeky-politics-46]

So I spent the last 10 days in Vegas, & I learned that I cannot write smut while sharing a room with my mom, lol.

I'll be finishing up that Sinister Strange story on Wednesday, but I'll post a snippet later for you to enjoy. Here are some fun photos from the trip to keep you entertained too.

[goforth-ladymidnight]

Personal update:

In case anyone has been wondering why I seemed to disappear after Tamlin Week, I started a new job! Training happened right before the event, and it's been kind of a whirlwind ever since!

I'm still writing and drawing (but not as much as I was). Once I get used to everything, I won't be so tired at the end of the day, and I'll start posting again. 😊

P.S. I'm also going on a date tonight. 🥰 I'm really excited. It's been kind of nice to experience some romance firsthand instead of just writing about it. It's been a while.

[storyswapnomad]

Are you still alive?

Still alive, yes. But I've been holding onto work and college, and none of my pre-existing tech issues have been quite recovered from. I still believe - at some point - I'll be able to come back to my UT projects, but that will take a good while.

[thegreatgeodo]

Devlog -- entry 15

Day 21 -- monday

It's... been a while, huh? I've been gone for a week already. I saw a weird post that wasn't mine on my blog but it didn't seem a scam or anything. I don't mind, stranger! Anyhow, i finished what's officially the fifth (yes, fifth, not first) attack. Aside from that, i finally have a good story which i like, makes sense and gives a reason for why geodo is attacking you. I'll also be implementing a name easteregg system, but that'll be probably the last thing i do since it's just gonna be ripped from another mod which yes, i have permission to use.

[angy-brows]

Hey y'all Sorry I've been gone for a while. I was much busier this month than I thought I was as half of it was spent house sitting for my parents.

Unfortunately it's not over yet so there won't be a comic this week either because of it, but I promise things will get back to it after this month is over.

Thank y'all for your patience -- ZJ

[fromdusks]

sorry i haven't been online much. life has been insane and I'm gearing up for some very important tests in the next month and a half -- once that's over I will most likely be back online as normal ❤️

[lexxynexus]

An Update on my life

Hello Guys Gals and nonbinary pals

So It's nearing the end of the year and I'm getting ready for Christmas and I'm getting cosplays ready for Mcm in the uk I'm going to try and got to One of the London MCM's and Birmingham MCM again In November / December And the cosplays i am building Right now is Vax'ildan From Critical roles Campaign 1 / Animated Tv show The Legends of Vox machina

I've been Wanting to cosplay Vax for so long and now I have the chance to actual Build the cosplay and ill be Posting the Updates on my instagram ( night_shadecosplays ) and I'm excited to also say my art commissions are also open still and i will be Using the money to go towards an old ipad To help me do art better than my old drawing tablet The prices are pinned on this page so take a look if you want.

But Also In my personal life my classes are going good and i'm getting better mentally and want to start posting and taking on here more so look out as i will be coming back big

SO i hope you all have good days Nights and Everything

[hasellia]

Heyo! Just wanted to give a quick update on where I’ve been.

These last two weeks have been really stressful for me. .·´¯`(>▂<)´¯`·.

I’ve been trying to expand my social circle with mostly positive results. However, I’ve forgotten I’m a hermit and accidently overcharged my social energy. Then I had to change psychologist then reschedule and attend various appointments. The people around me are also having a hard time of it so I’ve been spending my energies supporting them where I can. This on top of trying to wrangle my interview for an academic scholarship and missing an appointment for that. So, I’ve just needed to shut down for a week or two. I’m starting to feel like I’m recovering now, but I’m not sure how sociable I can be at the moment. (￣┰￣*)

I still have another two weeks before my interview is finished, so I’m still going to be somewhat busy on that. But please still feel free to drop an ask or DM about something if you want, I might just take a little while to get to it. Or at least, it still makes me happy to see something in the belly of my inbox.（￣︶￣）↗